Love... does it spare anybody?

1st September 2008...
i receive a surprising news...
he has gotten engaged...
i couldn't believe my ears...

i pretend to be calm...
but it was like rush hour...
both in my heart and mind...
then i could pretend no more...

i broke before my friend...
i was not in pain...
but my eyes overflowed...
but for what reason...

never was he mine to say...
never he said he loved me...
never he promised any such...
never he gave me hope...

yet i weaned like a baby...
complained to God...
but for what reason..
I know not...

what was that i felt...
was it love or what?...

The Day I Died...

The sun shined so bright
The day full of delight
All things felt so right
The day that I died

Heart felt no burden cry
Much like a dessert fried dry
By the steaming sun in the sky
The day that I died

Life flashed before my eyes
Memories ugly and nice
Like black and white rice
The day that I died

I am ...

i am like a dictionary

so thick and heavy

with so many w-o-r-ds

yet i don't speak a w-o-r-d