Love... does it spare anybody?

1st September 2008...
i receive a surprising news...
he has gotten engaged...
i couldn't believe my ears...

i pretend to be calm...
but it was like rush hour...
both in my heart and mind...
then i could pretend no more...

i broke before my friend...
i was not in pain...
but my eyes overflowed...
but for what reason...

never was he mine to say...
never he said he loved me...
never he promised any such...
never he gave me hope...

yet i weaned like a baby...
complained to God...
but for what reason..
I know not...

what was that i felt...
was it love or what?...